ASSHOLE ASSHOLE ASSHOLE ASSHOLE


YOU BIG ARSEHOLE!

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I can't believe I'm posting HERE. and of all people, about YOU!
Woah, I must be really upset/angry/annoyed!

Gave me hope then took it away and I went crashing down.
You're no better than him.

I should go back to bed. BUT I'M SO FRICKING PISSED.

 haven't posted here in a while :/

there are some people you don't really wanna talk to, for fear that you might enjoy your time talking to them too much, then forgetting the reason why you stayed away in the first place. 

Super tired right now. :( but I'm supposed to be studying econs & lit. why the heck am I blogging? I'm so damn tired. can I just go sleep and not study? 

I really hate JC2 life :(

 anyone has a remedy for a broken organ?

I just dl-ed some CN blue songs to cheer me up. Their songs never disappoint me (: which is awesome(:

why do I care? seriously. Haven't I learnt my lesson? Obviously not. I feel quite. silly. now.
okay, you know what? I'm not gonna care anymore. I'm not gonna be affected by this! How can I be anyway? this doesn't make any sense.
I shall go do something. to distract myself!!

xoxo

 I must be really troubled and upset, huh? Considering the fact that I'm blogging on my private blog. Oh, and also the fact that I'm still awake when I was so tired the whole day.

You're the one I want to talk to the most, but I'm so tired of always looking for you.
And I'm so tired of waiting. 
I'm horrible.

goodbye.

 Figured it was time to tell everyone the truth..






















































I'VE BEEN ON TUMBLR WAHAHAHAAHAH

anyway, my tumblr url
lydidi-loves.tumblr.com
simple right? follow me! :D
okay. so.. what's up with my life so far? promos are over :D:D and I prly can promote. since I miraculously managed to pass every single subject o.O But i've been worrying about alot of other things recently. And even though I'm on tumblr so much more now, I'll still post on LJ, no worries there! cuz I can lock my posts here (: so, other than promos, choir and church stuff. I've been having some health issues, esp worrying cuz my good ole' friend ANAEMIA is back. took an iron pill today from sheryl, but didn't exactly feel any better, cuz I still felt pretty giddy. I'm actually getting used to being giddy, which isn't a good thing, i might mention. Other than that, my left hand has been having pins and needles for 3 whole days.

My godbro says it's prly due to a compression of the major nerves in the wrist. which sounds really freaky, i know. But honestly, it doesn't bother me much, except maybe that my left hand is quite alot weaker now. which means, I can't play the violin for now. hopefully it recovers. otherwise, if i can't play the violin for forever, I might as well just jump off a building. but no worries, i'm quite sure I'd be able to play the violin soon enough! esp since my godbro said it's nothing to worry about, unless it gets worse, or there's something really wrong with it when he checks my hand on sat. :/ but let's hope for the best, shall we?(:

School has been pretty alright I guess, just everyone freaking out about promos and all. While I, instead, fret over choir. It's like a huge stone in my heart, as yusra described about how she felt towards the R word and promos. No one has been bugging me much these few days, well except for one exception. Constance would know him as bitchy big mouth. yep. what he said made me kinda upset today, but ohwells. I don't like being treated as someone who has no power and authority to stand up for myself. Yet, at the same time, I know that I have to do the right thing. And the right thing would be to give way, not give in. There's a huge difference there. Giving in refers to being unable to step up, hence giving into the 'stronger' power. Giving way refers to when one has the ability to step over the 'stronger' one, yet willingly chooses to let it go. So you know what, BBM? you can call me a bitch all you want, because I really can't be bothered about what YOU think of me. We'll show you. We'll show you good. We'll show just how much we 'need' you, or so you claim. 

Enough about BBM, I have better friends around me. (: ones who care for me(:
ANYWAY. I was pretty disappointed when I heard something today :( which was why my tweet had a sad face :(
but I can't do anything about it anyway, so ohwell. 
Shall go sleep now. Shall dream of all the awesome people in my life<3

xoxo

 okay, shall have a quick post before revising math for the last time :/ i'm really super worried about math!
like the teachers said that it would be really hard :/
and omg cse is even worse. mr lester was scaring me today :(
hahah i totally forgot that chinese was on fri! hahaha shucks. should I study? i think i'll just bring it in case.
I will study..
1. ECONS CASE STUDIES!!!
2. CSE!
3. OMG OMG OMG LIT I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED. 
4. chinese. heh.

alright. so today was pretty mundane. like I studied from 9 plus till 11am, then went for math consultation with aishah and then had cse consultation. ended at 1 plus? went back to the L to study. had a break at like 3pm? and received a phone call from chelle, who told me that apparently we had a study date, but cuz gab didn't tell me, and she thought he would, so nobody told me. and they were on the way to lot1. so i was like oh.  hahha
then aishah, yus, feeq and I moved over to the canteen! and omg for once, after so many days of studying in sch, yus and I finally saw mango. hahah i know charles and keith is good enough, but mango is funny! haha
but.... gab called, and I had to leave :(
but it was really awesome seeing gab and chelle again after a super duper long time! :D:D
i missed them so much!
saw tortoise today too. and got introed to this guy called. turtle. omg. i dont even know his real name! hahaha but his voice is nice. hahaha
yup so that was it. (:
alrightttt i had better go study math now :( anyone know the formula for cylinder? i kinda forgot. hehe

see ya'll soon!!!

xoxo

hope to see mango, and I know yus would want to too ;p

Just gonna blog bout a few things. 


1. I love my friends (:

thanx yusra, shafeeqa and aishah for being such darlings (:
constance too! I just realised that I kinda think of her as an older sister. hahah
but really, love studying with them. hahah the things we do are seriously retarded. and I'm so glad that we're so comfortable with each other nowadays(: hahah 
it's like we know each other so well now! I don't even have to say a word, and they'll know. hahha and they're so used to my spastic antics hahha

2. I MISS YOU MICHELLE WEE. ):
we have to go out after promos like a few times a week or something okay! gab's been bugging me bout going out too. he even mentioned going swimming at cck o.O

3. CHARIS TAN, I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR OUR SPECIAL POST-PROMOS PLAN. (Y)

4. GRACE THINKS THAT I HAVE A KOREAN BOYFRIEND. hahahahah!
and i'm gonna let her continue thinking that. (: haha! silly girl.

5. I keep doing embarrassing things in front of people that I don't really like :/

6. GOING TO BED NOW. SEE YOU MAMACITAS IN SCHOOL TMR!<3

xoxo